hi, i'm mobi

i've been feeling really gloomy these days but i can't fathom why. i've also been missing a lot of people. i've lost touch with some really nice people in sfs and science. too bad, i was never really good in keeping relationships. somehow, i have incured this distant kind of attitude. yeah, i can spend a good amount of time with anyone but that doesn't give any guarantee of complete interest, from me.

but i'm trying to outgrow it if not unlearn. i mean just outgrow. i have always believed that we can never unlearn things. simply put, the moment we do something we have already imbibed the process. yeah, we may forget parts of the whole but forgetting everything is just too close to impossible.

surely, going away is essentially significant in my life. that's probably it. i think/feel i have to go somewhere. it's hard to explain but there's just something missing in my life.

i wish i could easily wash away this low feel i'm having.

anyone, help.