i just had to

i miss the rainy evening you brought me home to cavite.
i miss suddenly star city.
i miss seattle's.
i miss the cheesy corn in recto.
i miss our walk me home -even if it will take an hour from drop- off-.
i miss our escapades in sunken garden.
i miss the mummy returns.
i miss your nba live raves and rants.
i miss your rooftop.
i miss your not so cold kool aid.
i miss your walis.
i miss playing hoops in the arcade.
i miss drinking that not so good lychee shake.
i miss using your computer.
i miss your scrapbook.
i miss gayuma and mang jimmy's.
i miss the swirled lollipop.
i miss the 1 meter gum.
i miss your being an atenista and a true marooned up attitude.
i miss your litany on frat wars.
i miss your fascination for lb.
i miss texting you at 4am.
i miss receiving a reply at 4:01 am.
i miss espresso.
i miss your old but reliable pick-up.
i miss your well- perfumed adventure.
i miss giving you water, not cold though, at 3 am.
i miss lying under the stars.
i miss using my sleeping bag because it was too cold outside our house.
i miss playing color wheel at the perya.
i miss the paper flowers.
i miss your being such a great driver, very, very good with directions.
i miss not going home to cavite on a weekend just so we could go somewhere else.
i miss crumbling in shame but on your shoulder whenever i do something, ahem, stupid.
i miss the awwww's everytime we see an awww-full moment.
i miss the girl selling sampaguita in greenhills.
i miss sarcasm.
i miss bronyorski.
i miss the snowy carwash thingy.
i miss laughing out loud (bad me) when the poor dog tried to save himself from falling.
i miss nix and the way you describe him.
i miss being scared because of the mumu's in mapplewood or in our garden in cavite or in up.
i miss taking care of pinky.
i miss watching kung fu hustle but missing a good 15 minutes because of injured pinky.
i miss dancing in the moonlight.
i miss manong guard opening the gate at 1 am.
i miss manong guard with "gabing- gabi na, tsk, tsk, tsk" look on his face.
i miss being a tour guide.
i miss typing things to bring on feb. 5.
i miss taco bell and national bookstore.
i miss plastic balloon.
i miss eating cotton candy.
i miss listening to spongecola and kitchie nadal and my college cd.
i miss sm north.
i miss shouting "im crazy for you touch me huwahansss and you'll know it's true..."
i miss gateway.
i miss coastal road and the very bad traffic there.
i miss with a smile.
i miss feeling bad when you told me that you saw your crush in subic last christmas.
i miss having this otherhand emotion when you uttered that it was heart evangelista you were pertaining to.
i miss waiting for your reports before new year, sagada?baguio?abra?
i miss wearing the slip-ons you brought home for me.
i miss sleeping with all the inis in me because of some mundane reason.
i miss seeing you outside the house before 12 mn just so we could sort things out.
i miss holding your hand.
i miss looking for a chinese restaurant in the middle of the night.
i miss planning where to go on this and that date.
i miss our couch.


i miss tinkerbell.
i miss those poems.
i miss the warm embrace.
i miss suntok sa buwan.
i miss being picked up at 7:30 on a sunday morning to have breakfast somewhere in katipunan.
i miss winpop- ing.

and ye, i miss you ris.